July 26th. 6:02pm

Hey. Today was horrible.!! Well first i woke up and called my boyfriend to tell him where i was going. I went with my mom to put in job apps. Then we came home. Well then i called Kevin and asked him to get on msn so we could talk..And he did and we talked for a while. Then my mom asked me to go to my grandmas house with her and i said ok yes. well i brought her laptop to my grandmas and got on my sisters myspace and pretended to be her flirting with him. He was gonna cheat on me with her.!!! He said tht.! he also said he would break up with me for her. Well then i got on msn and we talked and he said tht he thot it was me but it wasn't and he said tht stuff to make me mad. But i knw he knws it wasn't me. It was crazy ): Then he went fishing with his dad. So i said call me wen you get back from fishing and he said ok and tht we could talk about it then. Then he said i was the only girl he wants and tht he wants to be together forever and get a place and all this cute stuff. Idk wat to do. Im so confused and scared :/ I don't wanna lose him. he's all i have. He's wat keeps me going in this crazy thing we call life. Im so scared. He's gonna call me later and we're gonna talk about it, i might ask him to come get me. But theres no way im going to break up with him. I love him wayyyyyy to much. I'll update and let you knw how things go. Cya.!